Problems
Over the past few days, I've been feeling a little sick. Lethargic. Something's wrong with my body. As in, I'll nap in the afternoon for a long time yet still wake up tired, food is distasteful, and I have no clue what I'm doing.
I might be sick. Overall, though, I think I've just lost my purpose in life. There's so much I can do yet nothing I do do. But I'm not sure I had a purpose to begin with. Before, my life is/was dominated by the college grind. As of now, it still is, but during this little free time I have, I really have no compass guiding me towards what I should be doing.
I mean, life is kind of absurd. There's no reason that I'll be remembered for anything or even that I exist, life and my memories and thoughts could all be part of a Boltzmann brain.
Today I read this blog post detailing some of the absurdities of our life (nice angry bunny btw).
And an earthquake happened in Japan today (23 hours ago despite it being yesterday in calendar day terminology).
And there's two wars going on, which all have no rational explanation for starting.
As everyone realized or is now realizing, we live in an age saturated with problems. I'll detail a few that I find most relevant in my day-to-day life:
- Problems with schooling and education (Why don't we pay our teachers more? Why doesn't everyone get access to education? Why is college so competitive for literally no reason because there's no reason it should be?)
- Misinformation spreads 5x (I think this number is correct) as fast as factual information; and no one bothers to read a correction if it means disregarding a headline that they want to cling on to -- as a result we (the people) end up falling into conspiratorial theories, and accurate worldviews are wholly disregarded. Also, bots and fake news spreaders and all this other stuff that's happening
- Apps are competing for our intention, yet we as the product don't realize that and continue to fall into their traps and blame ourselves for their wrong doing. I claim that there is an economic incentive at play to sap all the talent and time of our youth by making addicting apps just to benefit shareholders and thus screw over the next generation (which has been happening for a while now).
- Academics, the people that universally everyone agrees is smart and should be making discoveries over their life, are getting ignored in favor of self-proclaimed rightous individuals (this does tie back to the previous point in relation to filters and echo chambers)
- wealth and social inequalities
and
- no one wants to do anything -- even reading this blog post is in this day and age mentally strenuous; everyone's too tired living their own life to help someone else out and as a result the world is becoming tailored to the individual and it's more or less everyone fighting their own battle together.
Life as we know it is deteriorating. Hopefully I can nudge it in the right direction. At the very least, hopefully I will end up at a point where I can water my plants on a regular basis.