A Warm Dusky Evening

08 Oct, 2024

Today dusk fell upon us as it usually does. Yet it was warm. And in the evening.¹
Perhaps it was magical because it was in the evening. Sure, it can be warm and dark at some midnight hour, but the fact that this happened during the evening - in the final moments of daylight rather than in the midst of darkness - is perhaps why this moment was so magical. Like the sun leaving behind its final rays and also a warm blessing.
The sun has to sleep too.

Perhaps it was the nature. Standing outside in my newfound unwieldy and weird yard, I found piece seeing a palm tree far out in the distance; I found peace seeing foliage blocking out the various lights coming from nearby lampposts and what not; I found peace in the grass next to where I stood, as green as the sun is bright; I found peace in myself, and the calm breeze, which wasn't even a breeze but rather a sway of wind checking in on the backyard.

Perhaps it was the thoughts that sprang up -- the thoughts of the wild and absurd problem confronting me personally, my friends, and the world today,, the thoughts of friends - remembering their faces and also wondering how they are navigating the whirlpool of life,, or the thought of simply being - of being present perhaps² or simply existing in more than peace and harmony -- in that feeling of knowing the environment and all its affairs. These thoughts were not bothersome but rather what they are, thoughts - ingots of information packed up with some reason that concentrate, get contemplated, then dissipate as freely as how the rain drops fall from the sky.

Or perhaps it was me. I'm not sure if I would say I had a good day, as that term is a little too broad. Perhaps if you asked me how I was while I was outside, I would reply that I'd be having a fantastic day. Or a reflective day.
Evaluated based on circumstance -- my day wasn't good; I got ~66% on a Gov test, I have to deal with the College Application Dragon that I have not yet even started trying to slay with all my might, and there are tests coming up and homework to be done. Yet overall, the way in which my day arrived and collided with this warm dusky twilight-like evening is positive and hopeful -- I turned my bad afternoon around and really worked on some horn pieces and just finished winning a few chess games. The arc of the evening was going great.

So overall, I took some time off today to go outside and simply see and feel (leading to reflection) today, and my day thus collided with a warm dusk evening which resulted in some great time spent alone.

Perhaps I shall get a second chance at a moment like this. Perhaps not.

(This post is mainly for me to highlight one of the best evenings I've had of all time -- most possibly the best 15(?) minutes that I have felt in quite a while).