2025/26
"Everything [that's happened] before yesterday is ancient history." - Kat
2025 already feels like ancient history. In my life, there's a monumental difference from not being at college to being at college; outside of college, days are slow, I don't get much done, and time feels wasted. At college, a slow week is crammed into every day which means I move quickly, I experience more, and I remember less — which is probably why the events two weeks ago might as well have happened two months ago. It's all ancient history to the mind's eye.
Having done monthly recaps for each month of 2025, I feel there's not much to say about the year. The overarching themes for this year was my transition from high school to college, my goal to stop caring about bullshit, and my intrigue into the mathematics behind "AI".
Yet I have yet to find out the true significance of this year. As not much has happened since 2025, there's no way for me to properly recognize the significance and accurately contextualize this year in relation to other future and past years and determine the truly notable things about this year, how I grew as a person, what all this means, etc etc. As such, stay tuned for a fuller recap of 2025 — coming out sometime in 2027 or beyond.
My 2026 new year resolution is
No poker {games, tables, videos, hands, books} until 01/05/2029 (in ~3 years time)*
(* The only exception being for research purposes (namely: finishing my project of poker in the terminal))
with the rationale that since poker has a negative EV on my life, not playing poker must be something good. Moreover, not playing poker saves me time, money, and the emotional swings that at times weigh tremendously on my brain and heart.
So far, this resolution has been going quite well; the idea of playing poker hasn't crossed my mind since I've made it, and at this point I can't even rationalize playing. It helps that I recently finished a book about poker which has made me truly 'realize my place' within the poker world.
Recently, I've also been playing too much online chess (even after quitting a few times) so maybe my resolution next year will be a ban on online chess. But that's just speculation on my end.
By the end of 2026, I'll have rds of a year of college under my belt, hopefully have gained lots more skills, and hopefully finally find something to do in life ;).
So here's to a good 2026! Stay silly, stay connected with your friends, and go outside more :)
